I know I've been absent for almost 3 weeks but between my school, my husband being out of town for business, life has been really busy. I've been reading blogs but not commenting as much as before just because I needed a bit of a break.
So the last time I posted I talked about starting the Advocare 24 day Challenge. The first part of the challenge is a 10 day cleanse. It was not a typical cleanse. For starters you ate food. I've seen many cleanses that start with a shake and that's all you ate and this was not like that. This did include a herbal cleanse and a fiber drink but it wasn't horrible on the system. It basically helped clear you out firmly not loosely. (get it?) This was for the cleanse phase. And you ate clean. Basically you limited your processed food or entirely scrubbed it.
I started this challenge about a few days before my husband left to go out of town on business to England. This was also stressing us out. The last time he went out of town for business our house flooded. That was almost 3 years ago. So
As you can see he likes take out. He likes take out especially if I make fish. On days I made a steak he was fine. Well steak is expensive (as is take out!) so he has yet to find the balance of sucking it up and eating the damn fish I make.
Doing the cleanse phase felt pretty easy. It was easy when I was prepped and I felt totally prepped during the whole 10 days because part of the time my husband was out of the country. What was a problem during this time was working out. Since he was out of the country I couldn't go to the gym at 4 am like I was used to. No one to watch the kids at first so my workout routine got thrown off.
About when he was almost done with his trip is when I was finally able to get a membership established over at another gym. So hey I have 2 gym memberships now. Why? It turns out that the school I go to now has a complimentary gym membership set up with the park district gym in the next town over. This gym has daycare. The oldest and I have been able to go while the younger one has been at school. Which this gym is always packed. Always.
Around day 17 is when I started to have some issues. I had entered the Max Phase on day 11. This is where you replaced your breakfast with a meal replacement shake. In fact this is probably the best tasting protein shake I've ever had. It was not chalky and was a very rich chocolate. It was very fulling but I missed my egg whites for breakfast. My husband was then home from England. Stressed with work he wanted you guess it his "comfort food". I on the other hand was hanging tough. I had done a good job of eating clean, eating fruits for snacks daily. Working out at the other gym and putting up with people talking on their cell phones on the treadmill. (WTH).
Then I lost it.
At day 20 I finally felt so deprived and hating chicken and fish, that I caved and had chinese and wine for dinner. I had a WW meeting on Saturday morning. I was kinda of pissy after the meeting because I was up almost 2 lbs from the day before. (yes back to daily weighing on the scale but by doing this I learned a few things so bear with me!) Even though I worked out that morning I felt Ok to eat that. Because we even talked about this at WW and that is if you deprive yourself of something for so long what are you going to do? Blow up and binge. And what did I do? Blow up and Binge. As you can see that going to my meeting on Saturday made it worse in fact you can say it gave me the ok in my head to go "I can do it just this once!" People had talked about taking a sample bite of something from someone to help with that craving and to be over it. Could I have done that Saturday night? Yes. Did I allow myself to go off the deep end instead? Yes. Did I pay for it? YES.
Oh holy hell did I pay for it. Because not only did I eat chinese on Saturday I then went ahead and had pizza on Sunday night. Back on track today but I feel like a balloon now. Even worse about feeling like a balloon due to the sodium in all of those foods, but my weight went right back to where it was before the challenge. So everything I loss (about 5 lbs) came right back.
What's even worse is that before I was very, very cognizant about my aches and pains before the challenge. Every step I took was painful. My PF in my right foot was horrible. During the challenge before I ate the chinese&pizza it was feeling good. It was not sore. Today I can barely walk. (Inflammation!) My metatarsal injury from the Chicago marathon in 2010 which barely made itself known for the last few months, hurt like a mother yesterday when I tried to run on the treadmill at the gym. (Inflammation!) My tinnitus (ear ringing) had basically stopped during the challenge before I ate crap. I always knew diet was part of keeping the tinnitus in control and this definitely showed me that that is so very true. (Inflammation!)
I learned to be very cognizant of what I ate more so during this challenge than I have with WW. The whole everything in moderation is great for some people if they don't have aches and pains. I have aches and pains. I react badly to eating certain foods. Let's back track a bit to where I weigh myself daily again. During the cleanse I ate steak. The next morning I was up 2.5 lbs. I found that my weight was the same or was going down when I ate chicken or fish. This might seem like a dumb light bulb moment but if you've been tracking your food and eating within your daily points it would seem that you should have a loss at the end of the week but instead I would be up because of eating red meat. My body doesn't just do well when I eat it. :( I love steak to so it would have to be a once in a great while thing for me now. This is almost like doing The Plan by Lyn-Genet but without the weird cleanse. Since I was weighing daily during and after the cleanse I could see what foods I could eat without an issue and what foods I would have an issue with.
I am to old to be farting around with this eating crap business anymore. Ha! I'm really not that old but being reminded of my injuries just by what I ate is hard. Instantly gaining 4 lbs over night due to what I ate is hard. I need to choose my hard. Eating clean food and losing weight and inches (I've lost inches!!) is hard. That's the hard choice I need to make to make things better for myself.